music.

hey guys, i posted three new songs on my Facebook/ Reverbnation page that i'm really proud of!  if you would, could you take a little time and listen to them, then let me know what you think?  i'd really love feedback, be it good or bad!  thank you, i love you all!

-michael howell.

p.s. here's the link to my facebook page:

http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/Drifting-Down/165192860170347?sk=app_2405167945

update.

hey guys.

i haven't posted any kind of actual writing lately, just kinda thoughts that i've been having, so i guess i'll just take some time and tell you guys what's going on in my life right now!  ready?  drum roll please.... drrrrr.....

NOTHING!! 

which may sound no bueno, but i'm actually glad it's happened.  i don't know, i'm not really one to need to hang out with anyone to enjoy myself or have a fulfilled day, so while i miss my friends terribly, i know i'll see them again soon and i've been enjoying my alone time in the process.

that being said, i really do want to see everybody again, soon.  it's been far too long since we ALL went to Applebees and played bingo, just saying. ;)

anyways, besides that, school's finally over, and i have one final to look forward to.  i'm pretty sure i'll be fine, it seems to be a fairly easy one, so yay!

and lastly, i've been writing alot.  wether it be music or literature, i've just been constantly writing.  i don't know if you guys have seen my acoustic project's facebook page, but just search Drifting Down on facebook and you should see it!  anyways, i've been doing alot of writing for that and i hope to have both an album and a book done by next summer!  get excited!

i guess the one thing i would like to change in my life now is how little change actually happens.  it's just been the same routine for basically the entire semester, and i'd like to get out there and do something different.  i guess i do miss my friends, because i never knew what was going to happen when i was with them, which was exciting!  but i'd really, in my heart of hearts, love to just move away.  like, out of state away.  i'm looking into it, checking money, and i'm hoping to do it soon!

so yeah, there's a little update!  thank you, i love you all!

-michael howell.

i can't.

i wish i could say life is perfect
but it's not
i wish i could say that i'm always happy, always smiling,
but i'm not.
i wish i could tell you i never live in the past,
but i can't.
i wish i could act the way you all want me to
but i can't.
i wish i knew the right words to say
but i don't.
i wish i had everything everyone ever needed from me
but i don't.
i wish i could just forget all this, move on
but i can't.

ladies.

women, you make me depressed.

why would you settle for some shmuck?  some guy who doesn't treat you right, creeps all over you, and makes you feel miserable?  i don't understand it.  i really don't.  and it's kinda frustrating for the nice guys out there.  just saying..

that's all i have to say today.  haha thank you, i love you all!

-michael howell.

we're back.

Echoed Illusions is back and doing better than ever!

we just had our first band practice in a little over six months, and i have to say, i REALLY like the sound we're going for now.  i'm excited to keep writing and get our old bassist back!

Joel, hurry home, me, Matt, and Dylyn has a present for you!

-michael howell.

to the choir.

for those of you who have noticed that my last post has been removed, i think you'll agree with me that it needed to go.  sometimes my mood swings can get me in a lot of trouble!

anyways, onto something better!  or at least a little less depressing!!

i'd like to take a second to desrcibe a conversation i had with a kid at my work today.  now we just hired this guy, and already he's been dubbed the nickname: "Bible Boy."  it's literally all he talks about.  and i fell into his trap.  when he asked me if i believed the Bible, i said, to an extent.  but i don't agree with some things churches do now-a-days.

now he literally won't stop talking to me.  it's constantly questioning my every belief in a very specific way, and when our beliefs don't match up perfectly, he makes sure i know that he thinks me wrong, giving me line after line of his preachings that his minister spouted to him the day before.  i'm pretty sure the brainwashing's complete.

not to say that believing the bible is bad, but at least PRETEND that you're coming up with this yourself, ok?  if i wanted to hear what your minister said about the subject, i'd go to your church.

anways, about today, i'm at my station, doing my work when i look up and see him making a bee line right at me.  i sigh and think here it comes...  he walks up to me and says: "so do you believe we come from monkeys?"  (i'd told him i believe in evolution before) and i said "yes, i do."  then he says "so you think humans came from bacteria, then fish, then monkeys?"  i responded "i don't know all the details, but yeah."  and he just looks at me, slowly shaking his head.  "i can't believe you believe we come from a big bang in the sky.  that's just crazy."  that's. just. crazy.  so i looked at him and asked him "well do you believe god created us then?"  he says yes, then i ask "how is that any crazier than believing we came from the big bang?"

and i'm just gonna leave it at that.  there was more to the conversation, about facts versus faith, but that's not really that important.  what's important here is that every belief system, every way of life, seems crazy to alot of people.  they become so rooted in their ways that they can't possibly see how anyone else could live a different way.  it even gets to the point of violence, and that just does not make sense to me.  i know i've said this before, but tolerance is the key to any kind of happiness in this life.  you have to accept people for what they are, not what you want them to be.  you need to see what's good about everyone, not what you think they're lacking.

that's it.  i hope it wasn't too preachy for anyone!  i'm sorry if i offended.

-michael howell.

i can't go home again.

I believed in the world right in front of me,
But now, along these empty streets
where this curse haunts these memories of a man,
And all he's lost.

No time to think about it. No room to breathe.

If I had a way back, I'd ride through the dark and the dawn
(but please don't wait for me)
because the man you love don't live anymore.
I can't go home again.

Tonight you'll sleep.
No fear of what might become of me, my dear.
Within these end of days where this longing turns
this man to prey on a love that yearns to die.

No time to live and doubt it
Girl, I'm worth the second chance. (What have I done?!)

No time to think about it, no room to breathe!

If I had a way back, I'd ride through the dark and the dawn
(but please don't wait for me)
because the man you love don't live anymore.
I can't go home again.

I believed in the world once in front of me, well now that's gone.

If I had the way back, I'd ride through the dark and the dawn
(but please don't wait for me)
because the man you love don't live anymore.
I can't go home again.

Bye, goodbye. Bye, my dear


-The Road and the Damned, Coheed and Cambria