the word no one wants to hear.

i've started this post about 50 times now and i can't think of how i'm going to say what i want to say without making things worse for everyone.

i wish i didn't have to save face in front of certain people.

but now that i think about it, why should i even try to save face? it's not like they'll ever read this blog, and even if they did i don't think they'd know i'm talking about them. and if they did, screw them

it's their fault in the first place.

so i'm just gonna say it, ready?

I FORGIVE YOU.

now you're probably wondering why that's such a bad thing to say to these certain people. well, you see, in this case, i'm about 95% sure these people don't feel like they need forgiveness.

they feel like I'M THE ONE AT FAULT.

but i'm not.
it's you.
i forgive you.
a million times, i forgive you.
deal with it.

thank you, i love you all.

-michael howell.